Pta h tumhara bola hua ek word...chidiya...hayeee....kitta pyara lga mujhe... Han am strong...I won't think kuch b nahi sochungi... Pr fir b wo apnapan...itte time bad...bus yar... Mere lie kuch ehsas hi mujhe khushi de dete h...pta nhi kitte pal ki khushii h.kite sec ki h...pr yarr nainzzz....thanks...

Yaar dkh y samjhane m tym zaroor lga or dukh b hua h...pr fr b...I must say a very thanks to you....y sab krne k lie...qki y sb ni hota to m ni samajh pati... Yarr...sach m I was very much involved with you...n I forgot to see d afrons of ma life...yar.... Yar tum ho or rhoge ( I will try to b loyal till I can be qki jo maza loyalty m h wo chodh Dene m kha) pr yarr bus or bus tum nii ho...sach m...life is more other than u... Lyf z more about other pleasures of mine that are related to me... Wo thandh m bacho ko kukdi bna hua dkh kr dil krna kii m hug kr aaun or unhe warmth dunn.... Wo subah ka ugta hua suraj or hazaro parindey u lgte hue jaise y us laal gole ko chhu rhe ho....wo baldlo m gheera y sama....waow....yar...its d beauty of the world...beauty of life... Wo kisi or k dard k lie utta dard krna ki sach m dard mehsoos ho...dhukhh ho oro k lie...hmari life m to kuch problems h hii ni yarr.... N d most imp ma frnz..yarr....jinke samne koi b galti krke khadi ho jaun or bolu yarr y ho gya..ab kya Karun? Or wo bole kuch ni hua h.mmauj kr...wo self less support...muje lgta ta I never had a good friend...I HV wasted ma time talking to people but no that's not true...there are people....who scolds me; control me; n ask me to BE YOURSELF.... Thanks Rubal ( dantne k lie; or kabhi na y koshish krne k lie ki tum jano meri prob kya h...coz I vl tl only wen I feel n wen I tell u; u giving time bhoot thoda hi sahi 15 min hi q na pr b giving tym from ur busy schedule) Thanks vikas ( I dint tell u ki koi problem pr fr b y smjhn lena ki han koi prob h n bina jaane trust KIA that I will handle all) Thanks Milli ( wo support bhut zyada ta wen u listened ma endless painful cries..fr supporting me n fr being there ) Thanks to all of you in ma bad tym...I lv u three...n I owe to u...I wish I never loose you people.. How can I forget you shweta and you Kritika with whom I did ol d masti n shared a Lil chit chats khana peena n ol n then laughing enjoying even at that bad time...love u two girls...I never knew I will do this in m.Phil. Even it was not bad time...pr us time bhut weak lag RHA ta..... Feeling good

Y zindagi is mod pr le aayegi..meine sch m kbhi ni socha ta... Mere frnz muje y khnnge tu wo ankita ni h jis se hum bat krte the...ankita b urslf..tujhe kya ho gya .. Kya sach m aisa h?? If I really been entangled...I don't know what should I do...what do I feel... Aahh... Kal m thoda thik feel kr rhii ti...pr kal mujhe dost y ehsas kra gae ki tu thikk ni h.... Bhagwan kbi kisi ko mohbaat na ho ...hope I was jus having gd tym wid him..I would never have attached to him.... Pr sch to wo h jo mera dil janta h.... Jao jitti door ho sake uttii door ho jaoo.. M chahti hun muje y b na yad rahein ki tum ho....tum ho to kon Ho.....buss....yarrr...nikal jaoo merii rooh se.

Bepanaah pyar h aaja.. Tera intezaar h aaja.. Soona soona... Mera jeevan... Sooni sooni... Meri duniya... Hahaha...mt aa...chl jaa...mauj krm.what reh Jha tu khush h...

Delhi....aisii jagah h jo bs mausam acha ho to kbi kbi haseen lg jatii h...wrna to yahn kuch aisa ni jo ise haseen bnae.. Aj sch m pyara sa mausam h...teri yaad h jaan...sb khte h sb thik ho jaega...apko b lgta h kuch thik hoga?? Muje to smjh hi ni aata.... Ek bat smjh aa gyi..pyar or dard ka rishta bhut majboot h..agr pyar hokr apko dard ni hua to pyar adhoora hua....pyar poora hi tb hota h jb wo kaatilana dard hota h... Mujhe dard hota h pr em strong enuff to handle dt...bhut kamjor ho gyi hun...pr khud ko sambhalne ki takat b mil hi rhii h.. M thik hun yarr...khush raho...tk care..

Sunoo.... Bhut zyada dil h bat krne ka...bhut zyada....yaram...yad aa rii h...tumhare pass Ana h....I wana hug u yar...lado.. Tum bin jia jae kaise.kaise jia Jaye tum bin..sadiyo se lambi h ratein..sadio se lmbe hue din..ajao laut kr tum..y dil keh RHA h . aajao..laut kr tum...

M nahi reh skti tumhare bina... Yarr...smjh ja..please.. We will talk to our parents..sb man jaenge.. I don't wana let u go...bt fr b letting... Or kya Karun m... No alternatives...

Ap muje mera kasoor to bta de....meine KIA kya h yar...ap muje kis bat ki saza de rhe h... Ap bharosa to kro mujh pr..sb thikk ho jaega...thoda time to do cheezon ko.sb sahi hoga...yaram... Problems r part of life....we both can solve them...b strong..stand hard..tk care.. Strong to bhut ho ap. Tb ap y sb kr skte ho to acha b to kr skte...dt vl mk our life's bful.... Stand by ma part..

Yarr... Kash y waqt us waqt ka hissa ho jisme hmari zindagi m badal chaye ho... Y Alam wo ho jo hum kabhi yad krein or hanse or kahein..wo b to din the. Bus tere mere darmiyaan judaii na ho...sath ho..chahe badlo se dhakhe dino ki sankhya zyada hi q na ho.... Hope sb thik ho

Morning yarr... Jeans fat gyii merii....subh subh...bus m atak gyi. Acha suno...I have developed a new schema..wheneva u feel low...u hug God and He really says to u.....ol vl b ohky... M thik hun...tumne kha meri family friends colleagues life m kisi bat ka koi effect ni hona chaiye...ok great...koshish krti hun na ho...sbke sath sahi rhti hun... Bt what about when em with me.....tb kya karu...fr kha jaun...tb to samne aata h nah kii koi kharonch h jo muje dard diye ja rhii h...hope u understand...

Yar lado....I lost ma wallet today...sb ta ATM bus pass metro card cash...pr fr mil gya..waoww nah ladoo...yarr pta h m miss krti hun tujhe... Pta h aj m logo k sath thodi khush ti...yar khush to hona hi h coz u wana c me happy always ..hainahh dear.. Pr pta h logo k sath to insan apna dard chupa skta h pr at about when u are alone.. Tb bs tu sath hota h...tera ehsas...hum shyd kbi ek na ho paye...bt emme yours nain.... Tu Jha b ho khush ho...tk care

Tujhe khud se door krne ki hasrat m aalam y h kii ab hum khud se hi door hue ja rhe h.. Yar it ol so suffocating...I cnt handle ol these but yes of course....I have to...I have no other way out...earlier I used to zinda rhne k lie sb krti hun...yes emme living bt its not life...life of ankita...bt yes it will b one day... Yarr dhyan rakhio apna...bs...waise b ek hafta ka chlo koi umeed hi ni hogi...bs zindagi ka y turn bda hurtening sa h...

Ek ajeeb se dard or baichaini m tadap rhi hun m..y ehsaas h jaise tu free h pr ab bat krne ka jee nii chah RHA tera.. Or jaise tu bat krta h...ek ajeeb se tone m...wo muje dard detii h...muje bura lgta g..jaise m majboori ban gyi hun tere lie...frr b yaram... Aj b u dil chahta h jaise tera fon aa jae tu khae ki chidiya yar sorry...tu merii h...m sb thik kr Dunga..tu khush reh... Pr aisa bs m chah skti hun..aisa kuch hoga nii... I wish fr your happiness

Life is what it is now.... What I didn't plan..... What I didn't want to predict... Life is what came to me when I busy in planning ol ma happiness with you Yarr wen u asked ki tujhe kya chaiye r meine kha jo m chahti hun wo tum muje ni de sakte....m khna chah ri ti. M chahti hun m apni har diwali tere sath manaun Nain em nt obsessed with you bt seriously I thought u r always there for me.. Chal yar enjoy ur day... Khush rhna..janglo m..n plz muje mt yad krna...I know ni krte yaad...pr krna b mat..bhadh m jaun typez ho jaun...m bs tere lie... Bus fr.....

Samjhtii ti mera pyar jo ibadat bn jaega...usse to u beinteeha Jud jaega Pr y dooriya wo mod l aayi..na tu h na teri arzoo ki justju h...ab to koi Sahara ki b na zarrorat h... Come back if u can...

shasana (familiar) h har mod pr dooja shakhs yahan..pr fr b h ajnabee hum Yarr lado..em sorry I did dt comparison n jus coz of that u made me a stranger lyk a stranger in your life.

Yaar lado aj diwali h... Meri har khushi m Teri kami sii h...ya muje khush hone k lie teri adat si h... Yar lado plz bus tb ap bat krein to apka mood thoda sa shant ho....r ap khush ho... Yarr emme missing u...I am emmme only fr u.. Yarr jaan teri adat ho gyi h... Mat jaa nah... Aaja yar wapis.. Mere pass... Missing u at 2:36

Yaar lado an diwali h... Meri har khushi m Teri kami sii h...ya muje khush hone k lie there adat so h... Yar lado plz bus tb bat krein to apka mood thoda sa shan't ho....r ap khush ho... Yarr emme missing u...I am emmme only fr u.. Yarr jaan teri ad at huii h... Mat jaa nah... Aaja yar wapis.. Mere pass... Missing u at 2:36

I only wished ki agar tujhse mera kuch ni hona to muje tujhse pyar na ho..... Yarr ek bat ka jawab de do tb tum muje ROK skte the tb q ni roka...q ni kaha mat kro mujhse pyarr.. Ho Jane k bad..tb m is jaal m fas gayi to mujhe kh the ho nikal jao iss se ab khud apne ap.... 22 October..chothi diwali...waiting fr your call... At 6:30 PM

Dard jism pr lagi karoach ka ho ya tadpati rooh ki aaho ka.... Dard to wo dard h Jise koi hamdard b ni samajh skta

It is truely accepted dt i have started to love him lyk i never did before..t.. ruely...it is true dt he was becoming important for me n ma lyf..he was there for me everywhere...hewas behind me , in front of me, in ma thoughts , in ma words , in ma breathe, in ma dreaming eyes ...moreover u can say he was my that imagination which had become an essentiaity for me..with whom i wana share everything what i do...where do i laugh where do i cry where do i speak n where i keep maslf in silence.... You vl surelyy nw b thinking dn its what every story holds...yes its an another storyy being loved by a guy n dn lving dt guy back n dn breaking up....d same every vurl kinda story which dont carry any novelty in it....bt its cool jus coz its attached to me...n coz i still lv d story without caring for its end or its climax....coz fr me dr z no ultimate goal...itz simply lyk dt...wenever u think u have reached it u want more...so whateva was ma goal r d end may nt b d end...it may b lyk it z only end which i never thought or imagined.....( 1:50 leaving c.sec in d metro ). I always had a worse habit of dreaming n .of imagining what future holds for me....what it vl ungolds for me....yeah its against nature dt u cant predict bt i cant resist ma mind of stop dreaming or imagining....i em nt gonaa tell wt was ma story wt it was ol about n what happened dn n ol about...em jus writing it fr telling maslf wt i really em feeling...its fr ms feelings rather than anything else...it will give me a concrete base for ma thoughts so that at least i can have a view later in ma lyf whether i feel d same r d changes has encroached ma feelings n emotions oll again in ma lyf..... I loved him n actually today even i em loving him...dr z no point of saying dt yeah i loved him yesterday n nw i dnt feel anything in just a single day...i hv changed dramatically...nopes i haved changed...i m seriusly adopting maslf to situation...of controlling maslf just not to call him...if he vl call dn surely i vl b happy n vl picking his call n vl talk to me...bt its about not to get so involved him dt i vl keep caalling him coz i wan to talk...i wan him to talk ro me now. .n i vl talk to him through you.... The real point z why emme behaving lyk dis...coz. according to him...i m getting more close to him...i m lving hime even more n he cant afford it coz if suddenly d break kinda thing happen dn it wiuld b difficult to handle him...yar plz somebody tl him dt em nt dt much a weak person who cant handle d situations on d spot n need to b given a trial first... I love to talk him...i lv ma oll sharing of all idiotic things dt i do with him...bt accrding to him..he will nowonwards vl have dt kinda attitude dt it wont matter to him whether we vl talk yo each odr or not...he wont call me in his free timings which usually used to b 10-20 minutes...which was really a big tym to give to a grl with whum u r in love. So i hv decided dt i wont call him n vl allow him to give me as much as tym as he wants...coz fr me its worthy to take whateva somone is r gifting me withlove rather than getting it wid lozz o f begging with love...seriously...yarr i ask tell him seriusly if i have love n always sho wed ma love to u...dn it only meant

Yeah i wana start to write it again...wen u feel that there is no other person in the world with whom you cam share whatever u feel...then u switch to writing...because its d best way to communicate what do u fwel...atleast there is noone here who is judging you...as lyk u were not supposed to say so, you are not supposed to do so..what r you saying em nt getting it..actually u r nt saying anything u are getting mad over it.....ehhhhhhhhh...i really dont wana anyone to understand...y wud u...zindagi merii h...bhut pyarii h...lyf m problems ane se y muje burii noi lgti...it asks me to love it more coz it givea me a lot to experience...emmme nt writing today to let anyoneto read what i have written or to lyl it or to post comments..its fr me...it seems its a bful modeof communication helping me to express just what dr in ma heart ...soi wana chilled out wid u.. I wana enjoy wid you...n seriously i wana love you...i dn waz na love any person any more I n ma lyf...coz ppl r nt made to love...yeah its true dy r just here as a unit wid dm u can interact n can enaure ur aurvival...jus ol...otherwiae its ol filled wid selfishnesa...yeah dts rrue...coz nuffn z done here for anyone else....whatever u do...u do fr urslf...n drr z nufnn wrong in it.......y wud u do anythin...g fr anyone else its our lyf ... N we live it for ourself only n i wna love doing so....hey catch u latter...gotaa go